A more healthy ( and trimmer? ) me!

I went to the OB yesterday for various reasons. One of the main reasons was because I have been having too many blue days. I was a little worried that I would start listing "the dark place" as my place of address. I didn't think I have post partum, since the first four months after the birth of my daughter was totally fine. ( Sleep deprived but fine. )

The OB asked what has been going on and what has changed in my life. I couldn't really think of anything specific. After talking however I realized that my daughter had started solids and her breastfeeding had been reduced somewhat. My OB explained that when you breastfeed you are very low on estrogen. When there are changes in your breastfeeding, your estrogen kind of comes surging back. This can create havoc on your mental and emotional state.

I have been dwelling on what I could do to make some differences in how I feel. I know that part of the crummy way I am feeling is that I am so far from my pre baby shape that its not even funny. The kicker is that I am only two pounds away from pre baby weight but my shape is TOTALLY different.

It would be so easy to come up with all these grand rules and plans to start feeling better. I could say I was going to exercise everyday, eat only healthy organic food and plan to go on a date with my hubby once a week. I however am not that delusional... yet :) I realize that I don't want to bite off more than I can chew. Then I will just feel like I failed and be worse off then before.

So I am going to take one step at a time..... I am going to introduce small things each week in hopes that I will slowly change my lifestyle. My prayer is that these small changes will add up to big changes for me. A better self perspective, slimmer figure maybe? and a happier mama. And everyone knows that when mama isn't happy, no ones happy!!!

So I have decided to expose this raw nerve to you ladies. It is hard for me to admit that I am not handling things well but your prayers mean more to me than any image that I wish to convey. Us mamas are in this together. We all have our kids and the fierce love that it creates in common. I feel like I owe it to my children to be the best mama that I can be. So I figure if I put it on line I will be held accountable to what I have promised to do...... so here goes.

I told you my changes would be small! My goals this week is to:

BODY- Drink more water! I drink no water and I think I eat more due to dehydration. I am going to try to drink 8 glasses a day.

MIND- I need to get out by myself once this week. NO kids and no doing a household chore during my time. This has to be totally something that I enjoy. It doesn't have to be a money spender. It could be a long walk in the park to pray and enjoy the quiet....

So wish me luck and if you feel compelled you could join me :)